Wolf Maidens Greeting

I am a young woman, whom lives, treks, dances and sings with pure wolves. Due to where I live not only do I have the opportunity to have viewed, studied, and experienced living, surrounded by wild born wolves, right on my own land even! But I have also forged a friendship with some captive born pure wolves at my licensed wolf outreach and eco education center in Northern Canada. They have been but one teacher in my life, and I have humbly grown over time with them. It consists of various journeys with various wildlife, and pure wolves as they be, and all their glory. Nothing is ever as great as viewing the wild in the wild, such moments never fail to bring me to my knees in awe, wonder and humble honor. To meet another sentient being on their own hallowed grounds where they belong, brings tears to my eyes. I have an undying love affair and romance with the greatest show on earth...LIFE! and wish to say Namaste' to all fellow earth aliens :0) I hope you feel most welcome here and come back to visit from time to time, perhaps leave your own thoughts and mark to remember you by. It seems that so many are in a hurry these days, and don't just sit back enough and simply BE, I provide a lot of music choices here (Just scroll through them if yee like ) I hope you enjoy your stay no matter how long. I LOVE to meet people and hear their own story. I do feel with my every being, that every morning the sun rises to refresh our souls, and every sunset is honored as a gift, for we are not granted a tomorrow. I have the now to share, and hope you catch the same wild disease. Remember in the words of Dr. Seuss Be who you are, say what you feel, because those who mind dont matter, and those who matter don't mind.

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Sunday, July 6, 2008

Take A Bite Out Of This!

Namaste' all! I am seriously far behind I see logging into my account, and I apologize for not having been able to visit your wonderful blogs in quite a while. I sometimes have more time than others, rest assured any blog I have commented on it is not because I felt forced to it is because you HAVE touched me in some way, and I think of you all. The warm season is the time to get as much stuff needing built as is possible, that means from literally sun up till down doing things needing done.

This spring /summer the facility requires extra high security areas needing completion with buildings, and extra water tanks for each of the habitats, the extra security areas are for during bad storms, or trees falling down, the wolves will still be in spacious areas attached to their main habitats but can be locked in without any risk of escape if a tree comes crashing down onto the main compounds. We are situated after all surrounded by forest.

The tanks are for when trips are taken, and water can continuously flow into their main bowls so any caretaker here to babysit does not have to go into the wolf enclosures to give water and such. (liability reasons) Basically working towards the entire facility becoming self sustained. We are already 3/4's of the way there. So I am hoping by the first snow to have it all complete. I am working towards eventually my CAZA, this is given out to only zoos (I am a licensed wolf facility, not a ZOO with a collection of various animals, so I will have my work cut out for me to eventually get that kind of elite status up here, but anything I have ever set my sites on comes true for me, just takes WORK and keeping it close within my heart and THOUGHTS putting that out into the ether.


Snow season things slow down a bit and I can catch up with stories to tell that happened during the warm months :0)

People come from all over to visit, and will look around and say things like "What a life you live, it must feel so peaceful and simple" ...well it takes a lot of WORK and TIME to get to *simple*, it actually is not as easy a life as it *looks*, it requires a lot of very hard work and that never ends out here, it makes the time I do spend not working even more precious for that *peace*. To simply sit without words, and thought. To silence voices and be *still* and at one within yourself. Being an artist, and maybe other artists can relate, your mind tends to always be going in various directions. Sometimes I laugh and make fun of it and say that is a part of being an artist the insanity of it all, some might call that multitasking. Whatever it is, it can get NOISY and you want it to shut the heck up ;0)

Okay onto the blog!

Does anyone ever get grumpy during the wintertime? like if someone rubs you the wrong way you want to... I don't know Bite them? :0) sometimes, I am tempted but I don't think I bite THAT hard! (kidding, but I'll leave it up to you to figure out what I'm kidding about, or not ;0)

Well if you don't get like that, thank heavens I am sure your family feel blessed ;0) ha ha. Well I get a LOT of phone calls and emails literally from all over the world, and people from various corners of the earth have visited my home in the woods, I get asked a lot about working with wolves, and I tell people ALL sides to this. I have some cute stories but I can tell a LOT more crazy stories over the years too of the sacrifice made for them. It's NOT even remotely been easy in any way shape or form. So for anyone reading and you think you want to work with wolves, my blog is not fuzzy bunny, it is what it is, wolves are what they are, I don't down play any of it. I want my blogs to be balanced and honest. I am not talking about dogs here or dogs with wolf in them.

One thing caretakers of wolves deal with is something called seasonal aggression (not dogs said to be wolves, I had to state this as I get sent a lot of pics from people thinking they have pure wolves in their house, and saying things like my pet white wolf looks JUST like your arctic legend...NOT) ALL wolves go through this during breeding season to *variant* degrees, from simply being more grumpy (not AS affectionate, more stand offish as in don't touch me syndrome, even growly if you go to touch them) to outright aggression of not allowing said caretakers into the enclosure even , or they will get attacked, this occurs during the winter /breeding months. For some wolves it lasts a few weeks, others it may last a few months!
Mature males tend to go through this a little more than females do in intensity. ( However keeping with the behavior change theme here, SOME intact females can actually become a little more affectionate (so the opposite) during breeding season ( a couple of mine are like this,) and might pay the caretaker a bit too much attention , which might piss off any male mate and incite some aggression in the male mate. (Not good)

This is another good reason to have free feeders (which we have) and they have their own custom built building boxes they sit in to protect them from rain/snow etc, so there is enough food to last without having to go into the habitat for sometimes weeks on end, and another reason why we have custom made heavy duty electric troughs so water never freezes in our frigid winter temps up here, if you cant go in to chop ice and give water umpteen times a day! (A true luxury ) Lock out areas are also a great necessity.

Wolves tend to mature anywhere from 2-5 years of age, and if left intact can start to display behavior that is different than they **normally** behave the rest of the year. Spaying/Neutering will help the animals go through this season more easily, and help eliminate the behavior change. If left intact, precautions MUST be taken to remain SAFE, and ensuring the animal not losing respect of you, due to you not understanding how to deal with them during this time.

I have one female wolf out here, where every winter I watch carefully to see if she will *change*, and every year that she shows no significant change, knocking on wood. She is a very dominant female, one that in the wild would lead a wolf pack in fact. She is a very BOLD animal too, which also would not help were she to go through this, it seems some of the most social or bold wolves when young, can in *general* be ****a little more**** prone to going through severe seasonal aggression than those whom are more shy and timid.

Well this winter her 4th, she went through this. I went in to clean her habitat, she approached me like she always does and showed no overt signs prior, and displayed the same greeting as the day before. I tapped her hut and she jumped up onto it and as she lay on her back whining for me to rub her belly, she suddenly clamped onto my arm growling, I kept my cool, and quickly diverted her attention by grabbing for a tidbit treat, ( I always keep treats in a zippered pouch on me around the wolves,) and with my other arm said "dharma!" in a happy voice, "loooooook hot dog!" (oh they all KNOW that word, I can get them to drop the stinkiest carcass they have in their possession for a hot dog bit!) she quickly stopped growling and jumped off after the tidbit, I decided to test her again cause I was like what the he**.

I really didn't want to believe she was going through this. I didnt know if she was hurt somewhere or...and if so I had to check her out without getting bit!

She proceeded within seconds to approach me again for attention, whining, peeing, ears back, rolling over, and being pushy about it. I move to touch her belly again , she growled and did a quick snap towards me, this was a hard growl...that sealed it for me! I told her "your setting me up dharma forget this!" and went about cleaning, keeping an eye on where she was, and paying her NO attention, I then left as she kept trying to set me up, and I wasn't biting!, cause I knew if **I** did...she would!!!


This is what she does as I move around she will approach me like this, soft eyes, ears back, as she gets closer she will shrink her body down and lower her head even more and pee, then pester even try and TRIP me throwing her entire body right infront of my feet to belly rub her. Too smart! But luckily I'm smarter ;0) I know ALL the games these animals try and play and why they do what they do when they do it!

Nice smiley set up eh? she devil...

I can handle HER particular behavior, and really have no choice. I just wont pay ANY attention to her at all till she calms down, this was better than some wolves I have experienced in going through seasonal aggression, but still Dharma is one VERY intense SERIOUS wolf.

People do laugh when they see her with me, cause she likes to talk to me in return when I talk to her in a high pitch voice, as if she is trying to mimic me. She **acts** like a sweet puppy all submissive, and if I even LOOK her way from a distance when I am with a group of people, she will go into her silly dance when she makes eye contact with me, but just as suddenly, she will look at someone else who may laugh out loud at her behavior, (not really believing a wolf can act like this) and just like the swift reactions of a race car driver her entire body posture, and face changes, she puffs all up like a blow fish! and even huff and puff at them, then she will look back to me and just as quickly to assure me, it was the OTHER people she was posturing towards NOT ME.

Make no no mistake however, she is TOUCHY, and if you even bump into her or accidentally step on her foot by mistake she WILL get pissed off and bite out at you hard! She is one of those temperaments where you just always respect her moods, and moods she can and does have!

Well one thing I have never seen before, or even heard of is a female wolf going through seasonal aggression like symptoms in the spring, this spring one of my females (this was not dharma this time) started acting like she was pregnant , she definitely was not, and there was no chance of this either. She kept digging crazy dens 30 feet under the ground , yup you read right 30 feet under the ground theres like 8 of them out in her habitat.


Pics attached of what she was up to. You can nowheres see how far and deep they go till you get right down there and LOOK INTO them or crawl into one and I have been in some that literally you are 30 feet underground. These are but a few of the 8 she had dug all over the place! and she was spending time underground in ALL of them. I had to just keep laughing and joking to everyone about her imaginary puppies! and why she was all brownish/reddish looking due to spending soo many hours day after day underground.







Now I have seen some maternal aggression really come out in some female wolves once pups are born, and keep caretakers out of the habitat but not females whom did not have pups. This girl not only made dens, but she would lay down in there HOURS on end day after day as if with imaginary pups.

One day in later may, I went into her habitat to clean and the way she approached me head on and tail down low, a little tucked under and kinked just slightly to the side told me something wasn't right, but it was too late she quickly grabbed by pant leg (good reason to wear not tight clothing sometimes, as she missed my leg but ripped the pant, she then darted to get me in the hock I used the bucket and shovel to thwart these attempts and calmly backed my butt the heck out of there. Not one single sign the day before that this was going to occur and so suddenly.

I tested her a few times through the fence she would approach submissively with tongue darting eyes averted, back hunched slightly, tail lowered, but with it held slightly and rigidly under her body, and the end/tip kinked to one side. As I would place my hand out towards her at the fence, she GROWLED long and DEEP and I was like OKAY she thinks she has pups when she doesn't, how nice... NOT! Let me tell you it is a stressful thing, luckily I keep the free feeders full and the water trough can be filled from the outside. Water and food taken care of, and raw meaty meal bones can be thrown in.

This is an animal that had to be allowed go through this process and it looks like it will occur every year, well it ONLY ended a few days ago, where I was able to go in SAFELY and not get out right ATTACKED. All I thought was, and people want animals like this as PET dogs?... ahuh. Russian Roulette comes to mind.

I have been around EVERY breed and breed type of dog out there in existence practically due to my involvement with dog shows and purebred dogs, and working at a dog shelter as a teenager. I have owned various breeds over time since childhood and intact or not they don't go through **this** particular behavior to this extreme and degree. How many people would be prepared to deal with something like this? and go through the above? Or how many are told it's not like what I am describing here, (due to wolves being sold as pets to anyone with money, illegally. After all wouldn't want to impact that kind of business now would we?) and that it is only the ramblings of some radical animal rights person? (shaking the head sadly)

I am attaching something I wrote in my care guide about seasonal aggression, I wrote it after I was attacked seriously by a fully mature adult male wolf I raised since he was a wee puppy (he was not intact, I had him neutered as a pup to avoid seasonal aggression, for his father went through it badly at another wolf facility) this incident happened in the fall, and it was not seasonal aggression it was a TEST *which turned into a challenge* which is DIFFERENT, than seasonal aggression. Maybe one day I'll go into that more indepth here.

A man named Paul wrote in response publicly to my story told back in 01' something that occurred to him. I was granted permission before he died to reprint his story as I saw fit, so am including that in my own article to give you an idea about seasonal aggression. Though different once more than what occurred with one of the two females above aggression is still aggression and there is potential danger if you don't know what you are doing. The photos were gifted to me from a dear friend whom operates another wolf facility for my guide.

Winter Wolf Syndrome (Seasonal Aggression) The Unspoken Reality

So what does aggression mean? Aggression is a behavior intending to cause harm, and injury through fighting / attacking, or via fear. Aggression describes an action. Aggressiveness can be the result of a pre-disposition either genetically inherited or is the animals’ individual tendency/ disposition. Fear and anxiety can cause aggressiveness in a wolf or wolf dog as can over reacting to a perceived/interpreted threat. It can be brought on due to competition for resources (food, mates, territories, shelters, and progeny) and non-resources such as competition for rank status.

The following define the nature of the interaction

a) Fight/Attack is followed by physical contact ie *bite/scratching* the intent is there to harm. The aggression will result in active physical contact/injury.

b) Intimidation/Threats there will be little to no physical contact except possibly in the form of dominance mounting, usually there is visual eye contact, and the canid will vocalize in a low pitch. The intent is to communicate possible harm, via threatening sounds, and gestures. This is very common behavior in dominance hierarchies.
The aggression is more passive aggressive. The canine displaying this sort of behavior wishes to avoid an outright attack. (I have seen this many times between some of my paired up wolves, one will mount up onto anothers back.shoulder area but display no outright aggression)

Most aggressive behaviors are determined by status or rank.
A wolf that is acting highly reactive, impulsive, angry, frustrated is actually being defensive due to a perceived threat, potential threat, or threatening stimulus. Self defense or defense can take place over offspring, territory, resources, and property.

c) Offensive aggression is unprovoked.
A canine that displays aggression that is unprovoked usually does so to gain some goal (object, subject) they will get some kind of reward from displaying this form of aggression.
d) Defensive aggression is defined by aggression that is brought on, due to a perceived threat/fear.
Handbook of applied dog behavior and learning by Steven R Lindsay
Veterinary method for clinically modifying the behavior of dogs exhibiting canine affective aggression using R enantiomers, S enantiomers, and racemic mixtures of selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor compounds or their active metabolites Dodman, Nicholas H. (Grafton, MA)
Working bitches and the neutering myth: Sticking to the science KL Overall - The Veterinary Journal, 2007 - Elsevier...

Developmental Origins of Aggression By Richard Ernest Tremblay, Willard W. Hartup, John Archer

Social dominance, aggression and faecal glucocorticoid levels in a wild population of wolves, Canis lupus Jennifer Sands and Scott Creel
Department of Ecology, Montana State University, USA

(defining the nature of aggression credit: The socioendocrinology of aggression-mediated stress in Timber Wolves (Canis lupus) Simon Gadbois))
So why is aggression needed in a pack anyways? Is there a use for it? And why is it necessary? There are two main types of aggression they are functional and causal. Aggression is necessary in wolf packs for a variety of reasons; wolves will not live in groups where there is no aggression so it must mean that aggression is to some benefit to the group as a whole right? It has been shown in wolf studies that aggression can be correlated to seasonal changes, towards the fall the aggressiveness seems to increase within the pack older wolves may make some repressive moves, young juvenile wolves may look to move up in rank, and pups vie for rank position in the pack. Heading towards breeding season, increased aggression allows for the possibility of a new establishment in order.

Aggressive behavior plays an important role in the hierarchy to provide a solid role and structure for the alpha pair; it helps keep the pack size fairly consistent as well due to healthy competition resulting in a stronger, unified group. Individual wolves can be driven out of packs or even killed for the betterment of pack society. The alpha female can aggress threateningly upon other females in the pack into not coming into heat, or aborting if they become pregnant. During bad years for food sources the aggression increases within pack society, which leads to more social break down and weakening of the pack bond.

Once spring hits and food sources are plenty the pack becomes more unified to care for the pups, hormones decrease drastically and there is less tension amongst family members.

One form of aggression that can be seen in mature unaltered wolves and wolf dogs with a lot of wolf (enough that they look/act wolf and might as well be considered one) not typically seen in the same degree in domestic dogs and in most not at all, is something called seasonal aggression dubbed by many wolf caretakers/ and facilities through the years as Winter Wolf Syndrome. This form of aggression is something many caretakers do not wish to speak about lest animal rights groups use it as negative fodder. Unfortunately it does more harm than good if it is not talked about, people should be given the facts and thus also dispel the myths at the same time. This section is not to demonize these animals but to give the general public a look into some factual information .


It would be very unethical of me in writing anything on care to only include information people want to hear and read, that would be too easy to do and not based entirely on the truth. You’re probably saying what the heck is Winter Wolf Syndrome? Before we launch into reasons and explanations first a story, this was sent into a list in response to my own serious tangle and challenge with a wolf that left me devastated. This gentleman’s name was Paul (now deceased sadly from cancer.) He was quite well known and liked for his heart, and integrity, his openness and willingness to share his experiences with others with his own animals. He touched a lot of people and left behind howls from his animals in his wake.

Permission was granted from Paul himself to reprint as I saw fit at the time I had been considering writing a book.




In Paul Ferrari's own words
Winter Wolf Syndrome

WWS, it happens, but only to us lucky ones. (G) As they say “Winter Wolves Can Be Fun.” Although it can happen to any animal it is more prevalent in captives pures and Hi%F1’s and not all animals in that category will get it. WWS will be more noticeable in an animal that has imprinted on you and has been highly socialized to humans. This type animal will treat conspecifics and humans as social companions. They will very likely challenge humans for dominance, specially those humans that have imprinted. All this will (or may) start, the winter of maturity, the winters between 3&4 or 2&3 years old, some may even be earlier or later. Remember, not all pures and Hi%F1’s will get WWS!!! Also remember, the more social the animal, the more confidence it has and is more likely to challenge. The shyer the animal, the less confidence it has and is less likely to dominate attack at maturity. Different animals do different things or nothing at all. Some will be just as mellow as they were in the summer, some will totally ignore you and then there are the others. Two Feathers, was one of the others. (G) This is still mostly related to HiF1’s and pures but can happen with others. Some of you out there have pures related to my Two Feathers (Twoee for short) Some are brothers and others, cousins that are coming into the winter of Maturity. WW is a maturity thing along with sexual behavior. Twoee is 9 years old now and was neutered just before his fourth birthday in the spring of 1995 after a winter of maturity, WWS.


I knew I had the exception in Twoee. Bottlefed at 2 ½ weeks and human companionship 24 hours a day for the first six months of his life, along with being socialized with the guys outside. He imprinted on me like I was God and you couldn’t have an animal more social to humans than he was. You could do anything with him. Monty took sperm, Nick Federoff took blood, and Twoee was like,ok I can do that. We did quite a few camp-outs going as far as IN. and TN. At some of the camp-outs he was used for educational purposes, by Monty,Nick,Pam Butler and a few others. I put this in here to show you how social Twoee was. I had just raised the exception to all rules regarding a “98”. Twoee turned 3 years old on 5 May 1994 and was still just a puppy, puppy, He didn’t know a stranger you could take him anywhere and rolling over on his back submitting was as natural as eating. As they say all good things must end. Jan. 3 1995,My now, ex girlfriend, comes in saying Twoee just growled at her with hackles up, but let her do what she went out to do.


I went out he gave me a little growl but rolled over for a tummy rub. I told her he’ll be okay. Most of our time was spent with Twoee and the other guys, so we both read them very well. Jan. 4 1995, I went out to play with Two Feathers & Choctaw (spayed Female), I got 50 feet in to the compound when the attack came. First the growls then the hackles went up and I knew I was in trouble when all his teeth were showing. The most fearful part was the focus and stalk. I could not break his eye focus and I knew he was coming first at a walk and now at a run. Monty from Wolf Park and I had discussed this behavior when he was up for a visit that past April and I knew it may or may not happen. All this may sound dramatic but this is how it happened with Two Feathers. Don’t take my word for it, just ask Christine, Missy, Gudrun and some others that are here. They will tell you it can get scarey and happen in different ways but you will never forget the “Focus.”


I knew not to run and I had too far to go to the double doors. The leap came from about 6 to 8 feet away and I was able to brush him to the side and yelled No! Twoee as he went by,his eye focus never left me. He hit on the return, head high, but I had a chance to brace myself. It’s not funny when you can count all the teeth on a full grown mature male. I got turned around and now he was on my back (where I wanted him, better balance.) and we walked out to the door, all the while he ripping at my jacket and swiping with his claws, the welts from the claws stayed about two months. All this from an animal who didn’t really want to hurt me, just wanted to put on a little dominant pressure. This was Jan. and I would have to deal with it until April. I called Wolf Park and talked to Monty that night, we had a good laugh. “Winter Wolves are Fun” That night I realized the 4 foot poop shovel was the answer.


The next night I went in with a shovel, if I just held the shovel straight down he would come over growling, hackles up and teeth showing but would let me pet him. If I swung the shovel back and forth he would move away. After four or five experiments I got it through my thick head, without the shovel in my hand he would attack, and did every time. You got to verify these things.(G) Two Feathers was neutered that April, just before his fourth birthday. It was quite a show, Monty and Jill were there from Wolf Park to Video and do sperm tests, Nick Federoff was there to do rabies blood test and sperm tests. I always called Twoee a “98”. After all was done, my Vet told us all he just cut out that 2% dog.(G)


Twoee was never the same,I lost my puppy, puppy, to full grown MATURE WOLF. With this type of animal you learn the meaning of living in mutual respect for each other. The animal will not be trying to hurt you, just dominance, but things can escalate very quickly into an all out attack and that depends on you. It has gotten better each winter since he was neutered and now summer and winter just blends although he will stalk me at times in the winter. After he turned five everyone was a stranger to be tested. I had a Wolf Park intern come for a visit and she did an educational program with me and Twoee, Twoee would let her pet and feed him through the potable pen but once her foot was through the door he would grab and exert pressure. This was done at least five times with different wolf people, got to verify. Now, no one new goes in with him. Those of you that say OH! It’s just the way the animal was brought up, well all I can say is, go educate yourself. Wolves can change, captive or wild, A WOLF IS A WOLF, A friend has Twoees cousin not far from me who neutered at 6 months (I did a lot of talking) and this should be his winter, we will see, God willing, what happens.


End of Story

Now, Paul’s story is not meant to scare people, and it is not why he told it. If it does scare you though, then that will tell you something. What my hopes are is to hit home the importance of understanding all aspects of wolf behavior before deciding on impulse you do want one in your life . Twoee was privately owned , he was an animal that was raised respectfully as a companion animal, and until maturity still acted like a big puppy with everyone he met. The he came into his own. The owner had to adjust to this animal that no longer was the puppy he had come to know and love, now this puppy was an adult. Luckily Twoee had an owner that was well versed in wolf behavior, he had a support system as well in other owners to bounce off his experiences with. Unfortunately many animals in Twoees position have been dumped into rescue, or put down, many are not owned by the kind of owner Paul was.

The image of owning a wolf has been made into something almost mystical/spiritual like. I have received e-mails, and phone calls from people who are lost in the hype surrounding owning one, the image they have in their mind blinds them to practical realities that come with such a thing . There is nothing more destructive or dangerous than ignorant bliss when it comes to sharing ones life with any animal, especially if it is a wild one. I can assure you this much, the spiritual visions one has of capturing this wild, and attempting to OWN and steal it from another fades pretty darn fast when the reality of just what it takes hits, such as couches being eaten, things of value destroyed, you cannot force them to be a part of your world. Your way of life has to incorporate itself into their lives, and you compromise that way of life for them, not the other way around like what most dog owners are used to, or even expect.

The drive to survive and procreate is strong in all animals but especially wild ones, no matter the animal. During breeding season in wild animals there is an influx of hormones (Testosterone and other androgens) that can make the animal testier, grumpy, and even down right aggressive towards others. Now even though captive wolves, and many wolf dogs are not what I would consider wild, they still can be prone to the same things.
Seasonal aggression is more likely to happen in unaltered high content F1 wolf dogs-captive pure wolves than it is to happen in an unaltered domestic dog. It is seen in unaltered males more than females however; females can go through this as well when estrogen levels rise.

Each individual wolf has its place in the pack. And all of them will try and eventually climb the social ladder within that pack. There is a big misconception about what alpha truly means. When I have spoken with other wolf and wolf dog owners and asked them what does Alpha mean? I get responses such as “well, it is an attitude, a way you carry yourself around the animal, the way you lead.” Some people feel you have to be able to back up alpha hood when it comes to owning a dog let alone if they get their hands on a wolf, and the human owner believes in physically showing the animal who is boss by alpha rolling them when young, this is actually not advisable and could result in some harm in the future to the owner, when this animal outweighs the caretaker and decides to treat that caretaker the way they were treated physically.
If you ever watch wolves together you will notice the one that submits to a more dominant animal, willingly rolls on it’s back, the alpha wolf does not need to physically force the animal onto it’s back. The subordinate wolf shows respect by automatically just doing this when approached.

Alpha does not mean the biggest, baddest wolf or human in the pack, an alpha leader is just, and is not a bully that physically walks around threatening or beating up on the other wolves, as eventually the rest of the wolves will get tired of the bully and take them out for good. The alpha pair are perhaps the wisest and most capable of wolves to lead the pack. They help to keep the pack strong through leading.
I believe how you treat a wolf when it is young will heavily influence how it will treat you as an adult, meaning handle the wolf too physically when they are little, they will handle you that way too; it may also influence how they treat you during breeding season. Seasonal Aggression is something to not take lightly.

There are many stories even worse than Paul’s story out there, he was one of the rare few brave enough to come forward and talk about it, and to help educate those people with stars in their eyes when it comes to owning a tossed around over used/misused quote of “piece of the wild.” A wolf is not a dog, no matter how one raises it, even though a dog is considered a domestic wolf. There are many variances between a wolf and a typical dog as there can be between two breeds of domestic dogs, it comes down to the research and effort the potential owner puts forth in order to provide adequately for that type of canine be it a wolf be it a golden retriever.
Winter Wolf Syndrome (Seasonal Aggression) is a normal behavior found in every kind of wild animal from reptiles to birds to mammals it is a necessary and serving function for those animals when they reside in the wild, it is not so necessary (desired) when it comes to those same animals in captivity as it is something human beings are simply not adjusted to and most are not prepared to deal with.

The following pics are of a captive female wolf and what occurred to her during breeding season, from another female wolf, in the wild unaltered males and females live amicably together, in captivity however when there is tension the wolf cannot escape and fights can occur. I strongly advise not creating pack situations of the same sex, especially if they are unaltered. Fortunately as bad as this looks she survived. Some may not be so lucky. Pair up wolves with the opposite sex in captivity and unless you are an educational center avoid creating pack situations. (Photos courtesy Wolf Creek Habitat Thanks dear friend! )
A personal example of mine of hunger aggression based around food and the season was in a raptor, a hawk actually, I used to take into the classrooms for presentations on behalf of the local zoo. This bird was imprinted on humans and we actually all thought it did not know how to even be a bird it was so imprinted on people. But even though she had imprinted and was excellent to take into classrooms for presentations, every spring she became very aggressive and every fall once again.

Even though she was raised in captivity the wild inherent tendencies were still there, and could not be taken out. It was actually quite harrowing for me to enter her cage in the fall time and I quickly would place her food down on the ground instead of having her fly to my glove, cause she tended to fly at me all talons out to attack otherwise.

To explain this behavior to children watching me feed her I simply would tell them she is acting out her natural pre-migratory behavior she is a Swainsons hawk, and every fall Swainsons hawks appetites increase as they are needing to eat as much as possible to prepare for their 10,000 mile long journey to Argentina. The hunger drive increases the aggression within the hawk. When they fly back in the springtime they are again very hungry from such a long journey once more making the hawk aggressive acting.

Now why would a hawk who does not make such a journey, or who does not breed in captivity become aggressive then? The behavior is inherent she acts out what she was made to be a wild hawk in a captive situation, her body goes through the same things any wild hawk would. Human beings can take the animal out of the wild but it is virtually impossible to take the entirety of the wild out of the animal biologically and physiologically.


The caretakers of this hawk have learned (been trained) how to adequately care for this animal when it goes through this kind of behavior but how many average folk would not have a clue if they just decided they wanted a pet hawk? A hawk is not a budgie. Just as a wolf, is not a dog.

Another example: Some friends recently brought in an orphaned raccoon, though they can be extremely sweet when young, they do mature and grow up and are not so cute and cuddly anymore if they are not altered. This couple brought this cute sweet little ball of fur home and decided to raise it, they had never previously raised one so did not know what to expect. They were about to get one of the harshest lessons up close and in person. Note Raccoons need to be handled consistently and on a daily basis, if just left in a cage they will become more aggressive eventually towards their owners regardless of seasonal aggression, they will be more prone to bite and attack. Miss out on that vital step you will definitely have an unhandleable wild animal in your back yard.

All went well for the first while, the baby grew up and matured. One day they decided to go on a trip as a family, and left the raccoon behind like one might a cat in the house, with plenty of food. Upon returning and opening the door, the raccoon came out of nowhere and attacked the mother, it chased her into the bedroom and was threatening her aggressively, meanwhile the rest of the family ran around to the bedroom window broke it and pulled her to safety through the window. So what went wrong?


Well first off the animal was becoming a mature raccoon, which means influx of hormones if not altered, that means seasonal aggression towards all others, they should have simply rehabbed the raccoon and let it go, or gotten the raccoon altered if they had planned to keep it and it was legal to do so. Secondly they left the raccoon home alone for a good while unattended to get into all kinds of trouble in their house, a raccoon is not a cat! Third they had expectations that this sweet raccoon would always be that way, that it would never change and that is because they did not upon finding the raccoon go onto the internet or go to the library to find sources of information to aid them in caring for an orphan, they could possibly have found a licensed rehabber of raccoons even, and at the very least found enough information on the habits, diet, behaviors etc. of raccoons so they were not winging the care of this animal. He needed to be with his own kind!

These are but a couple examples of wild animals that go through various forms of aggression related to seasonal changes, and even though wolves are what I would consider ***TRULY*** wild, (as SOME things have been altered due to captivity, and having not been born IN the wild and raised by the wild) they can still be affected biologically the same as any wild animal is, if potential caretakers and or zoos are aware of this they can prepare for it but they should be given all the facts so they can make the choice for themselves. I know I certainly would not wish to attain any kind of animal if I was not given all the facts surrounding the care and special unique qualities specific to that animal.

I do not Echo Paul’s statement that not every wolf, will go through WWS, (only that not ALL will go through the EXTREME version of it) some dogs with wolf in their heritage depending on wolf content may not go through it (it's a risk. ) But all pure wolves do go through changes of ***some sort***during this season, and it better to understand there’s a possibility for this to either be on the low end of things than the extreme one, and enter into such a huge commitment blindly. Seasonal Aggression is commonly misunderstood.


I often recommend that people spay or neuter their dogs, even though they do not get the above occurring, an animal period who’s hormones don’t come into play make in general much better companions and pet quality material than those animals that are not altered. Bite stats prove it to be correct. Unaltered, chained, male domestic dogs lead bite incidents on children. Yet the true reasons are not examined in depth and it is much easier to blame a certain type of canine. (breed bans) Perfectly social outgoing sweet male domestic dog pups can change drastically upon puberty.

They can become completely side tracked by hormone driven behaviors such as in your face confrontation, dominant-mounting behaviors and more. I find there is no distracting some of them from that which is in their fixation. After puberty though there can be a decline in the testosterone levels, when the behavior is practiced compulsively, it becomes a habit and darn near impossible to stop and influence, even altering won’t help a habit.

My Feeling is that dominant behavior and sexual related behavior becomes joined and one, they are both directly the result of the influx of testosterone.


So how did I come up with the heading of this blog? Well ha ha, as she grabbed my pant leg suddenly I instantly blurted out "Take A Bite Out of This" as I placed the shovel in front of me, but too bad she knew the difference between my leg and a shovel!

I've learned that such things as my story above just *are* what they are, and that sometimes it is best to simply go with it. This teaches me something about dealing with edgy humans actually, not that I've been bit and attacked by a human the *same* way a wolf might , but that I know, when coming in contact with some edgy aggressive people ,that if I *react* and push back, this results in more force coming back my way. It is always very easy to just want to impulsively *react* to a situation that *tests* our strengths and weaknesses. But to do so might just result in a serious bite in the assets!

So choose carefully which mountain you decide to lay down and die on, for it just might be a molehill in disguise. ;0)



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Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Independance

Namaste' dear souls!

Every winter I juggle around what wolf will go where, I have a few separation pens to separate the wolves during breeding season, it's but for a couple months and they can be placed then back with their mate for the rest of the year, as wolves unlike dogs, mate only once a year in the winter. But I see no sense in breeding wolves every year only for pups to be placed in zoos continuously, with no goal other than to see wolves in captivity. Plus how many zoos can possibly be out there. Unless there is something specific like for example with my arctics and they needed pups for an endangered species program etc. It is best to just separate.

But let me tell you, even though necessary to do in captivity, (I talk about those reasons in another blog) once you see pups pulled from mom, it rips your heart right out, and I don't care what any zoo keeper or other caretaker of pures says, that they *get* over it...I don't think they do. Do such people speak wolf? I hardly think so. The difference between *dog* moms, and *wolf* moms is this. In the wild the *pack/ family units bonds and ties are STRONG* they are primal in their instincts, their ways have not been altered the ways dogs have been, dogs have been *bred* specifically for pups to then be dispersed as soon as they are weaned, and the dog mothers are only too happy to see them go!

This has over time created dogs, whom can take or leave a pack unit. Dogs that are content to be an only, in a household of humans and at such humans beck and call, they have lost their *independance* and rely heavily on US humans for everything.

Wolf mothers are FIERCE in their protective instincts, and this post reminds me of Stacey and her husband Mike (hawks ) blog for mothers day about mothers. Though yes I have seen this initial instinct in many dog mothers when pups are FIRST born , and for the first few weeks, but have also noticed they start to lose it once pups are weaned. Not so for wolf mothers, that bond has only strengthened in nature between pups and mom, and other family members. You see puppies are very highly valued within a wolf pack structure, it means a packs very survival and fine tuned operation.

I have watched a wolf mother literally dig for a number of MONTHS, all over the grounds a zillion dens and holes looking for her pups that were pulled from the den, and dispersed. This was one mother whom was NOT just forgetting in a few days about her puppies. So when I hear such generalization about such intelligent animals, I simply shake my head and think they have not YET then experienced what I have, or maybe they have and just don't *see* it that way. You have to TRICK many wolf mothers out of the way, in order to get their puppies in captive situations, cause she will NOT willingly give them up to you like a dog will. And if you are lucky to be *trusted* enough to interact with those puppies, whilst they are still so young, that wolf mother *entrusts* YOU enough as a human, to not take them from her too.
I can completely understand pulling and bottle-feeding wild animals for a time if in a captive situation, and then the family unit placed back together once the pups are completely socialized to humans, (Wolf Park comes to mind for this) and thus more safely handled for life then, by human caretakers. BUT the majority of places that breed pure wolves, pups are dispersed and the pack unit is not reunited a few months down the road. (I mean no disrespect, nor am I saying that places that do this are outright *wrong*, some of my pups came to me that way.) But I am complex in my feelings on this topic too, so I mean no insult to other professional colleagues. The longer I have been involved, the more my feelings/ thoughts have evolved about this. They can't not. When you view ALL life as sacred and free thinking, and you have wild animals in captivity, well for ME at least this has been a part of the struggle along the way in my journey.

Maybe some would call this anthromorphizing but if you ever get to see such a look as I witnessed with this one wolf, you would KNOW, and you would FEEL what I say, if you truly have a connection to the sacred circle of life and living. Over the years as I have gotten closer to these animals and their world, I have also gained a different respect than when I first started out, the lessons they have taught me have been invaluable, and it is best to never think you know it all, cause just when you even start to think you may know enough, they may knock you on your collective assets *grin*, to say "You NEVER graduate, so keep studying."

How can you not admire another creature for being what it is, and thinking for itself? Not allowing, no matter what, to be manipulated into something it is not.

But wolves can also get into familiar *habits* of comfortability like humans can. Almost ritualistic in behavior. Is there something you HAVE to do daily, no matter how small like maybe you check the doors twice every night that they are locked, or maybe it is a glass of apple juice right before bed , you get the picture. Do you feel that something may not be quite right if you are taken out of that *comfortable* zone you have forged, and that ritual you have created not played out? It could be as simple as a certain kind of blanket you HAVE to sleep with, heck even on camping trips THAT blanket has to be with you?

Well one wolf this winter had a serious issue with being placed into one particular separation pen, it would have been alright had I placed her in a couple of the others, but just not this ONE. She had never been placed into THAT one before in her life, so instantly she felt *uncomfortable* I thought to myself, she's such a calm animal, she'll do alright for a couple months. WELL, she had other ideas. ;0)

Another thing in *general* about wolves is this, they THINK before DOING they dont take temper tantrums like dogs do when they want something, they simply think and DO. My dogs would sit there taking tantrums like little kids destroying as much they can FIRST, to get what they want. Before then accidentally stumbling their way upon the solution. (Different thinking processes at work here)

I had gone inside to get changed to go in for shopping, and laid out on the bed for a couple seconds, I remember feeling for some reason that she was NOT going to settle into where she was, well then I heard this THUMP (the cabin has a metal roof so even when it rains, it's loud) I shot straight up and yelled "Holy He* she's on the roof!" this is where all that palmolive soap down my throat over the years as a kid, proved it's mad methods not to work, as I had a few cursive words to express ;0)

Ten foot tall, 9 gage, zoo strength chainlink, she climbed and got onto the freakin roof! It's a separation pen, and though fairly close to the cabin, within a number of feet. I have never had a single issue with it with any other wolves till she came along, *grin* and decided to teach me something.

I ran out praying to all the powers that be, that I was wrong. But nope miss smarty pants was up there and grinning at me. I was picturing firetrucks, and oh gawd, how the heck was I going to get her off the roof. I was able to coax her down by throwing weiners into her enclosure. Well I think I can say I have nearly seen it all now. And no, there were no worries or chance of her running away from home. ;0) not on this land, and she loves her home.

In fact I often tell people I could let them all run around my land freely at will, and without worry of them leaving, IF I lived in a world where the rancher down the ol country road wouldn't shoot them, at first notice. So I keep them safe, as they are in my world even though I also allow them to be in their own as much as is possible.
Of course, I took her immediately to another enclosure and she was as content as punch then. I should have *Listened* to her, but I didn't, sooooo being the ever independant thinker, she let me know what she wanted. Paradox thank you, you keep me in check to make sure I am listening. Which also makes me think of Robins post about communication and how it is vital for ANY relationship to have the Respect, Understanding, Tolerance, and most importantly being a GOOD listener. I guess you can say My dear Paradox of Providence was fearless ;0) in her communication.
Photo of my friend dustin with my grey beauty paradox, who comes out to visit the wolves every couple months

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

The Art Of Living

Namaste' fellow earth aliens! I thought I would share with you something I just started yesterday. Today I am going to apply subtle color then the glaze today, I want to keep it subtle as I like the contrast with the other tiled art I have already fired up, and they have lots of color. This will be a part of a 7 foot by 7 foot mural I am doing for my bathroom wall. It has my girl Tibet, Legend and Eco on this panel.

Art has always been a link to me a lifeline so to speak, it is as a part of me as my wild natural being is, and has always been there when I need to call on it most in my life. It has been a best friend through thick and thin.

A lot of people that meet me, seem to think I am really outgoing, but I blush so much too and that is definitely my shy side coming out, and I have to force myself to not crawl off into that dark corner at times still. (Oh let me be a spider!) Over the years working in the public eye has helped. At first it was HARD, I was that kid that if you looked at me even at 18, I would cast my eyes down, not wanting to ever offend or impose. I did not want to be the center of ANY attention.
Like a wolf I was content to watch from a distance, curious, but very shy. But very very happy on my own, away from crowds. To this day I avoid malls in the city, not only to not subject my sanity to huge crowds, but I do prefer to go to little tiny shops to support more small business owners, than big box stores. So have a better excuse than simply not wanting to be around huge crowds. ;0)

But when I started working in fields that FORCED me to be more outgoing, against my natural inclination to shy away, the feelings started to come with the actions.

The action of simply doing REGARDLESS of the feeling.
I knew this would be a HUGE mountain to climb, and a real challenge.

Oh boy it was painful, let me tell you for all those people who truly are SHY and not just a little shy but SHY, they'll relate. I'd rather be off on my bike somewhere in the middle of nowhere looking for frogs in a creek (Yup fav. past time ;0) of mine, )

But you know, I also realized something that our inherent *selves* don't ever leave us, even if our actions change. The actions may just get *easier* to perform. And I don't mean acting, as it certainly is not that, but you are creating a new self, another part, as part of the whole. Not necessarily dumping the *old* self either, as I don't want to disrespect or dishonor ANY side to who I am.

I often tell people I really did not like doing the dishes, I think I did far too many from the time I was 5, I became the official dish dryer for a family of 5 and my older sister was the washer, I remember having to stand on a chair cause I could not reach the sink LOL.

My little spoiled brother got to sit it out ;0) by the time I was 10 I graduated to become the official daily dish washer, but as much as I disliked dish washing, I disliked the drying by hand towel even more. So that was moving up in the world for me hahaha. No dishwashing machines except litle human kids in my household. Now by that time, my little brother who should have filled in my old job of dish dryer, (I was sooooooooo evily relishing that) my parents told him he did not have to hand dry each and every dish and utensil like I did . I was to rinse each one with very burn your hands water, hand them to him, and him set them out on a towel to air dry! Oh I so wanted to plan ways to get back at him for that. ;0)

Where am I going with this? you'll see. As I used to sit there year after year first dish drying, then dish washing, I would *create*, I would sing, I would draw images, and sculpt within my mind, I would continue to LIVE and do whilst I was performing an action I TRULY disliked, with a passion.

Over time, as I did those dang dishes with soul, with heart and art within, the *feelings* started to follow, bit by bit, the actions. Just as my little shy girl story above.

So now when I don't feel like doing something that has to be done, I simply do it with *soul* within, so yeah, okay busted! you got me in another indiscretion, *sigh* as if telling you all I run around with not much on around my land singing to wolves wasn't enough, but I dance with the dang vacuum cleaner, picture that! or uhm NOT! *grin*

Art comes in various forms, when I say artist it can be someone whom collects bottlecaps and covers their house with them, to a graceful ice skater, to the person who travels to the farthest corners of the world to discover ancient cities, and to listen to their whispers and secrets untold. It can be a gentle mother, whom sings to her children at night as she tucks them in, or tells them bed time stories you can't find in any book on the shelf!

Art is universal it seeps from every pour, to glisten and shine.

Art is a life vein of discovery, or dusting off what already lay beneath the dirt.

I have freely throughout my life given away art pieces be it beaded art pieces I have made, or be it a painting. When questioned why I have *given* away so much, and not sold it, when I very well could. I simply respond...Because I can.

Because I can bring that out anytime I want to, I can create anything I see, why wouldn't I want to give that away? Why would I be born with a gift, if I was not also meant to truly take that world, share and apply it sometimes? When I meet people for the very first time I get really excited cause I want to share my life, my music, my dance, I have learned over time that as much as I feared people, I also loved them very deeply. I fall in love truly, on a daily basis.
Art has allowed me to step on the box and borders, life has tried to place around me. I pull from it, and it from me, for it it helps to create who I am, for I am not the only artist.
When I create it is a dance between me, that which is my inspiration, and that which is created as the result.

All that said you want to know a secret? I TRULY disliked doing the dishes period, cause I had to wash them with palmolive dish soap, and let me tell you in my household growing up you so much as said damn, you'd have that soap going down your throat, or a bar soap of zestfully clean, (ahuh, what a lovely name NOT) would be pushed in and out of my mouth grating along my teeth. I'd rather take the belt my dad would give us , than that dang soap. To this day I avoid looking at zest and palmolive, and you will NOT find those in my house! I had to use my torture devices daily hahaha.

Oh palmolive would you like ME to do a commercial for you? *grin* I'd do a really bang up job for you :0)

The moral? Get out, and just CREATE if it means mud patties, then mud patties it be! and hey don't knock mud patties, they're good for so many things like a mud fight, who's game? ;0) cause them after the mud fight you can take out the water guns. Okay, Okay, I admit I have a couple water guns, too. :0)

Pssst the title of this post reminds me of a really GREAT song by the boomers, (The Art Of Living) if you dont know who they are, oh they are truly wonderful I discovered them at 17 whilst traveling in the back of a little toyota pickup extended cab on my way to a canoe trip, and friends in their thirties at the time had that tape just cranked. But here is another great song from them since I could not find the art of living on youtube, this one is called You Gotta Know, check em out!but turn off my music to hear them

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-UYOib_M_wk

Friday, May 2, 2008

A Place

Namaste' all ; though I dont seem to have many readers, the ones I have wow, amazing people and that is such an honor to have you share peeks into your world, and actually be interested in the one I trek. So THANK YOU THANK YOU most ever humbly. I told myself if I made just one new friend on here, and there was a sharing and communication of sorts, it would make me ecstatic :0) I truly love to walk in another's shoes, and go on a journey with them. Other's journeys lead to inspiration for me as a student, and what we are inspired by, (be it another being, situation, experience etc) we then take and create a fantastic reality. We also can in turn become a teacher. I know my teachers have come in all shapes, sizes, and colors! I can honestly say there are a few though I have not met, I would welcome into my home graciously with open arms.


Sky and Legend share a moment


It can be hard to look at our weaknesses, but depending on the circumstances such things can also be a strength, so we must tred carefully so as to not cut out what may at first glance, appear to be weeds from our garden. For the very next day that weed may become the rose we need, thorns and all. ;0)
I have written poetry, music, and have been singing since... oh gee, I remember running around shirtless in just underwear riding my bike up and down our street singing songs from grease hahahaha. So a while, and living out where I live, I can still run out in my underwear and sing shirtless if I want, okay I admit I do hahaha, but the planes have been getting lower every year I notice ;0) but hey old habits die really painfully. ha ha.

I thought before I upload and post on my blog my snow storm of the century video I took at just after 6 in the morning april 26th of this year, (just a few days ago) I would post a couple of my songs I wrote, and add a couple pics of the snow storm we got hit with in such a way, as it looked like the middle of winter all over again. The videos are a bit too long for you tube so I have to shorten them through a program which I hope to get to tonight, and post them this week-end sometime. It's just me hiking through my land taking footage of mother natures snowy siren song.
This first song has a folksy feel to it, with high and deeper notes... wrote it approx 10 years ago now, one thing about me is I never write a story I am not personally connected to, that means I have experienced what I write about , or know someone who has, or been inspired to write about it, due to someone elses story. But every thing I have ever written in my life has a story. The second song is about a little girl that was murdered Carlie Brewster. I saw this video on t.v of this beautiful little girl being led away by a stranger, and later found dishonored.

Songs hit me mostly when I am in the shower, or in bed late at night this one hit me right before I was to take a shower, and I wrote the entire song in that one shower, it just all came to me and went together. I wrote it all out the moment I jumped out. I do wish to say I wrote Carlie's lullabye in honor of Carlie, I did not know her, I FELT her energy and soul right through the video I saw of her, it HIT me HARD like a gust of strong wind, and I feel she helped me to write that song just like that. I do not have any children, and I pray the song is not taken out of context, maybe some day I'll adopt so many out there need a home, I work with youth though and they are a HUGE passion in my life. Maybe I will post my song "when the last leaf falls" at some point as well, as that is about a child I knew when I was a child myself, and she was killed. A place is very much a part of me, things I have seen, stuff I have experienced, other people close to me and watching their stories. As I said we all are students and teachers, that never stops, unless you choose it to.



A Place



I once saw a bird flying high in the sky;


And I knew the secrets it held;


It led me to a land, a far away place;


And there I was forced to stand;



Well I've seen many wonders to make me believe;


I've seen a miracle or two;


I now understand, as that bird flies away;


What I believe about myself will all come true;



A place, a place, a far away place


From the moment we're born till we die;


A place, a place , a far away place;


One you can run to and hide;



I once met a man, he was travelling afar;


And he spoke, deep from his heart;


He said "if you look, you will surely find;"


Oh I wonder where this man had gone;



A place, a place, a far away place;


I wonder just how he knew;


A place, a place, a far away place;


Oh I hope that I find it too.



I once knew a child, and he grew to be;


A man so big and strong;


When asked he replied, "I would never be, if my mother hadn't been there all along;"



A place, a place, a far away place;


I wonder is it only what we say;


A place, a place, a faraway place;


I want to believe there's a way;



So many dreams, a long time ago;


He wonders what happened to them all;


He lived his life, asleep in the light;


Blinded by the darkness in his soul;



A place, a place, a far away place;


It's true, you become how you live;


A place, a place, a far away place;


And it's only as good as you give;



All the things never said, and in the blink of an eye;


It becomes too little, too late;


And as death takes hold, of a father so old;


"I'm proud of you my child," he doesn't say;



A place, a place, a far away place;


Be sure to tell those, that you love;


A place, a place, a far away place;


For when it's time, it just might not be enough;



In a room sits a girl, waiting to die;


Yet clings to the hope that life brings;


Down on her knees, she prays there'll come a day;


When the chains within, set her free;



A place, a place, a far away place;


Caught between the real and fantasy;


A place, a place, a far away place;


To rise up from the ashes, to see;



Driving home from a place, he never should have been;


To a wife he's told too many lies;


A tear stained letter awaits in her place;


He knows, it's a final good-bye;



A place, a place, a far away place;


Where the stakes seem to outweight the cost;


A place, a place, a far away place;


In a game he was sure to have lost;



Is it right, is it wrong, which road to choose;


Conflicted inside and confused;


To compromise, all she is in this life;


And in the morning left lonely and feeling used;



A place, a place, a far away place;


Don't give in, don't make that mistake;


A place, a place, a far away place;


For all you'll be missing is heart ache;



In a bed lies a woman, so old and grey;


It is hard to see the beauty within;


She said "don't you judge, what you see my friend;


For the stories I can tell you never end;"



A place , a place, a far away place;


I found it such a long time ago;


A place, a place, a far away place;


For I was once young too you know;



And as I walk, I look around, and I hear the sounds;


Oh it's been such a very long time;


To feel as a child, what I once used to feel;


As I turn my face to the sky;



A place, a place, a far away place;


From the moment we're born till we die;


A place, a place, my far away place;


One I can run to and hide, for that place I know resides ...inside.


Copyright©Skyla
Tibet Night Song Has a Wild Message



Carlie's Lullabye



It starts with a seed of love;


And it grows, just like a flower does;


The first time I saw you, the first time I held you, the first time I saw you smile;


The first time you laughed;


The first time you cried;


The very first time, I'm forced to say good-bye;


I need more time;



Carlie, Carlie,


I'm singing to you a lullabye tonight;


Carlie, Carlie,


I'm telling you mama, that everythings alright;


I'm in the light;



Well god works in mysterious ways;


Just when it feels like he's left, the very next day he saves;


Well maybe in time , I'll learn to see, and learn to understand;


But as the tears fall down, it's not what I had planned;


I wasn't there to hold her hand;



Carlie, Carlie;


I'm singing to you a lullabye tonight;


Carlie, Carlie;


I'm telling you mama, that everythings alright;


I'm in the light;



So many times, I hold near;


And when I close my eyes I can still see her here;


But then I wake from a dream, and she's gone;


I want to go right back to sleep;


And the pain hits hard, I pray the lord my soul to take;


Do I even want to wake;



Carlie, Carlie;


I'm singing to you a lullabye tonight;


Carlie, Carlie;


I'm telling you mama, that eveythings alright;


I'm in the light;



Dear mama, I'll say a prayer for you;


And you know when it's time, I'll be back home for you;


But till we meet again, I'll be the blowing wind, and the stars shining up in the sky;


I'll be the rainbow you see, at the end of the rain;


Don't think of it as good-bye, I did not die"



Carlie, Carlie;


I'm singing to you a lullabye tonight;


Mama, dear mama,


I'm telling you that everythings alright, I'm watching over you tonight;


So mama please keep a candle burning bright."



Please be sure to always tell those you care about , just how much they mean. We are given this moment to do so. We attach a lot to the physical, a lot of emphasis in life is based on what we can physically see, touch, taste, hear. But we are all energy, you and I, through that we FEEL and connect, it is something that does not die, ever. When I was a child I used to pretend to literally be in others shoes, so when I would see or meet a blind person for but one example hahaha, I would rush home and, I swear my parents thought I was always losing it, but I would blind fold myself and for over a week, *huge for a little kid* time wise, be blind so I could somehow see, feel maybe a LITTLE of someone else's world and life.

I think my parents sometimes were ready to take me to a doctor, and would get mad at me for such sensitivity. In fact they tell me they did in fact take me to a doctor once because I was so quiet and shy, and did not speak till I was 3 they said.

I was so sensitive to the energy around me, that it became more important, growing *that spiritual* side than anything else I could physically experience even. The physical just went along with the spiritual to me. To KNOW myself intimately, perhaps I could see more of others, in the light they should be seen and respected as well.

I tell people, they don't lose themselves when unaware, they simply misplace themselves piece by piece. Do you walk aware, and greet the divine with humility and humbleness?

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Unhindered

A Couple weeks ago, Judy Wood a photographer/artist came out with her grandson Mark, to visit. That visit taught me something, and without going into detail simply reinforced my belief yet again, on just how undog like wolves can be, and how different each individual wolf can act and be from person to person they meet. I am glad I started off with some very hard wolf temperaments in the beginning, to show me that as good as legend is, I have seen a lot of the opposite, and dealt with and seen truly wild acting sides to these wild, yet in captivity, tamed beasts. Had I started off with a legend, I could have been lulled into a false sense of just what a wolf is, and not seen early on their full capabilities and potential in the extreme. And the extremes make no mistake, I have dealt with in personalities with wolves. At any rate, Mark did get some special moments with legend and eco, and Judy got some great pictures, including surprising me with some she snapped of me and my dear friend Northern Lights Legend. Yes he likes to sit on my lap, or try to the big suck! If I lay down on the ground he will try and lay on top of me like a blanket, well I am only 5'1 just a little girl, needless to say I have to try and convince legend he is just not a blankie! But he doesn't yet believe me. ;0)

Sky and Legend
I think Mark has enough to do a pretty good report in class now on wolves, He has a wolf paw casting I gave him, as well as some shed fur from last years shed of legend, and he took some video footage while out here. I know his grandma got some great pics of him. The shed fur is interesting to show to people. I get asked a lot about the arctic wolves white fur. Their fur at the very root base stays grey (arctic wolves are born fairly dark/greyish and phase out to the final white they are famously known for) but when it sheds out you can still see the grey downy undercoat mixed in with some white hair shafts/guard hairs, that original grey coloration stays with them all their lives. Wolves hair shafts are hollow, this aids in better insulative properties, but an arctic wolf's fur, the hair shafts have even more air pockets than pigmented hair shafts do, this helps to keep them even warmer in those frigid arctic temps. And they need all the extra help they can, living such a hard life in the wild.

sky. mark eco and legend copyright Judy Wood